Butterflies.

Right now, I am feeling dizzier than before the first time I gave blood. Sure I said I'd be fine and make friends in a snap. But latley, my mind keeps asking questions that I can't answer. I'm not the same person my friends knew at Austin Peay. I was secure, confident, and no one messed with me. I had not one... but several different groups of buddies. If I was bored.. it didn't take me long to find out what was going on. My first semester there the other froshes texted me asking about parties. I was a socialite.

But, now I'm going to a new school. I do miss my friends. But that isn't what worries me. What worries me is not knowing anyone. Not one person. I am not the same. I am painfully shy. The only way I'd talk to anyone is if they talked to me first or if we had to for an in class assignment. I hate being alone. My partner in crime isn't with me. I know I can't replace her. I don't know the downlow here. I used to be El Capitan and the Ringleader. Now I'm just the shy and probably very lost new girl.

GCSU has a beautiful and inviting campus. But they building are big, intimidating, and I don't know which subjects are taught in which buildings. I went on Tuesday and was excited. The administrators were much nicer and more helpful than the ones at my old school. I also applied for a job at a couple paces. The town is little and neat. But, those first days are going to be strange and awkward. There is no avoiding that.