It's Over.

I just got out of spending 4 months liking someone who wasn't worth it. I think I knew in the back of my mind the whole time when I used the excuse, "You can't help who you like." He wasn't like all the clean cut boys I'd liked before. I thought maybe I was special. But, maybe I was just digging through the garbage after being single so long. He was an asshole, but he made me laugh. I did have fun with him too. It was kind of like a tie dye phase. It's fun and cool, but has and end. Only trashy people pretend it doesn't. I'm not trashy. Where am I going with this? Anyways it's over. I could have made many more mistakes that wasting precious time that could have been used on school work or sleeping. I felt and looked like a zombie yesterday. Maybe because I was a little hung over. But still... When it was finally over, I was relieved. I was out of the torturous cycle. I could have thew opportunity to wear something nicer than tie dye. But, at the same time it's hard to let go. I missed the idea of him and having someone to kick it with. But, I don't miss him. I just need to come up with better ideas. I looked in the mirror today as I was getting ready. I was happy that I could still look at myself. I was also glad that I was not other side. I'm not a phase at all, I am a classic.