It's Over.

I just got out of spending 4 months liking someone who wasn't worth it. I think I knew in the back of my mind the whole time when I used the excuse, "You can't help who you like." He wasn't like all the clean cut boys I'd liked before. I thought maybe I was special. But, maybe I was just digging through the garbage after being single so long. He was an asshole, but he made me laugh. I did have fun with him too. It was kind of like a tie dye phase. It's fun and cool, but has and end. Only trashy people pretend it doesn't. I'm not trashy. Where am I going with this? Anyways it's over. I could have made many more mistakes that wasting precious time that could have been used on school work or sleeping. I felt and looked like a zombie yesterday. Maybe because I was a little hung over. But still... When it was finally over, I was relieved. I was out of the torturous cycle. I could have thew opportunity to wear something nicer than tie dye. But, at the same time it's hard to let go. I missed the idea of him and having someone to kick it with. But, I don't miss him. I just need to come up with better ideas. I looked in the mirror today as I was getting ready. I was happy that I could still look at myself. I was also glad that I was not other side. I'm not a phase at all, I am a classic.

Time to reacess

I have been doing a lot of thinking lately and I need to reorganize my life. I can't be slacking in my classes at all and figure out what it is that I want out of life. I know I am not going to be in this small town forever. I don't want to be. I also want to live a quality life. First I need to work harder in school. I show up and turn stuff in. But, I've been procrastinating. I'm not going to not study for any one. It's my life in the end. I have to deal with the consequences. I also don't want to be at my school for my senior year. My mom and her boyfriend are moving to Georgia and I'll just go to a school over there and be with them. I can also find work at the country club. There is a lot in Georgia for me to do with Broadcasting. The CNN center isn't too far away and probably has some good internships. I have my head back on and a big opportunities ahead of me.

Procrastination Nation

I have only read 3 chapters in a book I need to have a review ready for at 8 a.m. Monday. I still haven't even gotten through my study guide or studied for a test I have Monday. Might I mention this is my second time in that class? I should be thanking my teacher for having a guide this time around; instead of kicking the work aside. I also have to know about connectors, RGBs, and studio lights for broadcast ops. Oh... almost forgot about that play by play that is due before Monday.
I just feel so tired lately. From nothing. Also very disinterested in school work that is supposed to be my number 1 priority.
What have I been doing, you might ask...
I made lemonade from scratch.
Downloaded 54 songs.
Watched 2 episodes of Cashmere Mafia today.
Made Strawberry Muffins filled with Nutella.
Polished all the furniture in the house.
Dusted.
Cleaned and organized my Mom's room to show her that I love her.
Organized my closet.
tried the vacuum Louise gave me.
checked the mail.
did laundry that wasn't mine.
found a quarter.
a 3rd of my government study guide.
wrote this blog.

I need to go on and do things. I have too much time on my hands to not be doing work.

Spring Break Playlist

1. Alone Again(naturally)- Guilbert O'Sullivan
2. Mississippi Mud- Hank III
3. Smoke & Mirrors- RJD2
4. Breakadawn- De La Soul
5. I'm Not In Love- 10cc
6. Tired Of Being Alone- Al Green
7. Bankrupt On Selling- Modest Mouse
8. Dirty Trip- Air